punchline.

“i would kill a thousand babies to be able to hug you again. i can’t imagine anything feeling better than that right now … besides killing a thousand babies.”

- alex

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whatever it is we had for the brief time we had it, it’s come to an end. it did so slowly, a little painfully, awkwardly, and we were both so frustrated for a spell, but it has ultimately ended well, and with a joke. all in all, i couldn’t ask for a better break-up, and when i really step back and look at the situation, i realize that i haven’t even come close to losing a friend.

i won’t admit defeat!

.. even though this whole distance thing is alot tougher than i initially thought it would be. not to mention, i’m usually the first person to cut-and-run in a relationship when things get difficult. then again, there are small, shining moments where i find myself thinking, “hey, this can work,” and that has never happened in the past.

in other news, i am currently working at luna rosa. drop by and see me sometime. i’ll be in the kitchen, making paninis, shouting, being tricked into drinking copious amounts of limoncello ( tastes just like lemonheads and straight vodka ) and being called “jynx” by my boss. i  love working for italians. tried getting a second job telemarketing for the peace center in the evenings, but i don’t think that worked out ( siad they’d call by friday at 4, no call ). pity, because i hate being at my house, unless i’m there to sleep or read. so, if anyone needs a petite, live-in housekeeper ( i cook, i clean, i tell jokes, and can fit into tight spaces! ) until mid-august, give me a call. i don’t take up much space.

it’s unfortunate

that i see so much logic where i should see only selfishness.

what can i do about this?